Me... without the fluff!!!

ok... so I know that most of the time I blog about uplifting stuff but, this time I blogging about the 1% time that I have my guard down When im the most vulnerable! I know that I'm not the perfect wife mother sister daughter or friend but, I do try my best and feel I would give anyone the shirt off my back! but I just don't know if I am as faithful as I once was... In the peopple I've intrusted with my life...or the desicions I have made?? am I wrong in questioning my own ability and the ability I thought I would have in making decisions for another persons life??? so many things can happen in this world and im scared to death for my children. I know that I can not keep them by me forever and they would not grow if I did not let them out into this very big and very scarey world..... but apart of me thinks if I just held on a littler longer.... a little tighter they wouldn't want to go!! Other than my 7 year old thinks shes 17!!! arggg.... she just doesnt understand the dangers of this world!!! nor do I think I ever will. i Just know this is me. I'm over protective maybe kinda crazy but, the one and only thing I know Is I LOVE my kids and would do anything for them, regardless of my own suffering. thats all I can do! Im sure I don't make sense to most of you, (tom always say's I dont make sense when I'm rambling) but I just had to get that off m y chest.I hope somebody out there understands the desire for a perfect household but is humble in knowing that the perfect household is only in heaven ..... with love Keri!

Easter Eve!

Ok so it's Easter Eve. Yes I have made my sweet daughters wear the famous curlers. They had so much fun decorating their eggs. Kristy and Kelly came over and we even let Killian take a try (he loved it!, but he did try to drink the dye I think he thought it looked tasty!!) I wish we could bottle up the excitement of the kids. I would be rich! Even though It gets exhausting keeping up with their energy! I knew it was just because they were anticipating what would be awaiting them in the morning! I know I just have a few precious years before some of the magic is gone. So I want to relish every moment! and it is nice having the line " the Easter Bunny only comes to good boys and girls!!" I had to laugh when I caught them all asleep, what wonderment must they be dreaming of?? even my lil ella tucked under Taylors neck new something special was coming! They look so sweet and I love that. I just dont want to forget these special moments!! catch more of the fun tommarow!! sleep well my babies!

Kyle's going to prom!!

SO it's offical my lil bro Kyle is growing up! I can't tell you how long I have kept this little man like 10 years old! growing up in a house full of girls I have to admit we were all a little worried he might be a little to femine. He surely calmed our fears as the older he got loving to play in the sand box, ginding bugd, and forever trying to fix things! He was three and would carry around my moms tools and say he was "going to work." we all got nervous at what he was going to be working on!! and there was the famous time that he decided to squish Kristy's fish into a little piggy bank so he could take it on a walk! (poor fish) He has always had a tender heart and is often too worried when it comes to his neices and nephews! I have a feeling his own children will be wrapped with bubble tape! I had the plasure of doing his girlfirend Jessicas hair and make-up for prom! Kristy had let her borrow kristy's dress from her Jr. prom. She looked so pretty! Kyle didn't want to go at first but, once he put that tux on mind you it had a pink tie and vest to match jess's dress he was all for it! He was so cute stuting his stuff around the house! I was impressed at how sweet he was to jess telling her how pretty she was. That boy does anything she wants! what a lucky girl! I just hope she doesn't break his heart! The funny thing was when we asked what there plans were for the big night he said,"well we are going to jessicas for dinner and then mom is going to drop us off at the dance." we all kinda chuckled i guess because when we were that age we all had our own rides! gotta give it to him not letting something like that hold him back from having fun!! we love you Kyletto!! never let anything stop your dreams!! hope you had a blast!!

showing off some of his dance skills!

She had to drag him a lil, (but not for long!)

hmmmm.....

After some thought I have decided that i'm not that great of a blogger. I have read many a blog that brought a tear to my eye and brought a smile to my face! I'm greatful for the wonderful insights you have all givin me! I hope I one day can express the love and fun thought of my life! sometimes i just feel as though one day drifts into the next and by the time I get to blogging there has been soo much going on i don't know quite how to cram it all in! so bear with me! one day I will get it! I just wanted to thank a few people in my life... even if they never read this! I first want to thank my husband Tom. There are sometimes i want to pick up my boot straps and and leave it all behind! (one for a min) then i realize he truly knows me.. without saying a word he just gets me! Its the lil things that matter like him telling me to remeber to breath and for heavens sake even laugh a lil! sometimes I get so caught up in the need to's that the want to's get left behind! He reminds to take a little time for myself! I also wanted to thank my sister Kristy, she has always been such a great sister and friend. I know she loves my kids unconditionaly even if they do beg her to get their way! I can always go to her with an unjugmental ear. She doesn't know how much I love and care for her. I am so proud of her for her position with her job and how well her lil KK is taken care of. she is the sweetest person I know! My friend Steph... what can I say about Steph!! she is my serogant sis! We have been friends since i can rember I always look up to her for her cool and collected way of handleing things! she has her priorites in order and doesnt bow down to anyone for them!! I have always looked up to her she ia a true friend and I know I will always beable to lean on and learn from her!.Ok so I can't get to all of you who have enriched my life today! but i will get my gratitude to you!! I know if I just try to be a little better every day its that much closer to who I want to become!! love all

so here are some of our rooms!!

OK so i haven't blogged for like ever and ever!! soheres whats up! I have been redecorating my house! not a whole overhaul just a few new decorations to give me a boost through this never ending wintwer!! arrg!! so i promissed a few friends i would post the pics!! i have also been doing alot of photo work with my awsome sis-in-law Brenda! who has shown me the photo ropes!! you don't know caous until you asee 30 cheer-leaders tumbling around in between the flash of the camera! they where really fun though! my sis Kami is also planning a wedding this aug. 22 just 10 days after my 10 year aniversary!! i have a feeling it will be a busy summer!! I have got my new camera up and running so there really shouldn't be a reason behind any procrastination of bloggin!! haha! so i am promising myself to be better!